So I just got diagnosed with what is called anxiety-depression. What this means is if I'm faced with a difficult decision or when I'm scared my mind goes into overdrive; flipping between the two. This often results in overthinking a situation, panic attacks, procrastination and hypochondria as well as shutting down completely depending on the situation.
I find predictable and repeatable tasks or moments to be easy and comforting. As such I'm afraid of dealing with people because I can't predict them; but yet one of my greatest fears is being completely alone, especially being hurt and alone with no one to comfort me. Also, driving is not my thing either. (not now anyway)
The reason why I'm writing this is because maybe someone somewhere is going through the same things I'm going through and maybe reading this will help them feel not so lonely.
Love you guys.
- Chris.
