Self

So I just got diagnosed with what is called anxiety-depression. What this means is if I'm faced with a difficult decision or when I'm scared my mind goes into overdrive; flipping between the two. This often results in overthinking a situation, panic attacks, procrastination and hypochondria as well as shutting down completely depending on the situation.

I find predictable and repeatable tasks or moments to be easy and comforting. As such I'm afraid of dealing with people because I can't predict them; but yet one of my greatest fears is being completely alone, especially being hurt and alone with no one to comfort me. Also, driving is not my thing either. (not now anyway)

The reason why I'm writing this is because maybe someone somewhere is going through the same things I'm going through and maybe reading this will help them feel not so lonely.

Love you guys.

- Chris.

Update regarding the 2009 family reunion blog and more

Well a whole year has passed by and no posts so far. Bad blogger! Bad!

Anyway, I have good news. The 2009 blog is back and running. Turns out my account was blocked for spam. Someone hacked my account and started to send spam to my friends and family. I went through hell and back to get it working again. But now you can view all the pictures in the article.

Update #2: Yes, I said I had some more news.

As of a few months ago I moved into my own place. I’m doing great and I’m thinking of getting into photography again. So be sure to check out my photo blog from time to time. :)

Also I think I’m going to do a review of Windows 8.1 pretty soon. I have part of it sketched out and I think it will be finished in a week or two depending on what I’m doing and whatever projects I happen to immerse myself into along the way.

Until then, I’ll see ya later!

An end of an era...

My family vacation blog has suffered a massive blow due to windows live going haywire. My account has been blocked for some unknown reason and the pictures deleted for good. You can still read the archived articles but sadly the pictures were only stored in one place which means my 2009 vacation never existed. This was due to a major hard drive crash in which I lost a whole years worth of pictures. It's sad to say that all my hard work has been flushed down the tubes and I will never be using SkyDrive again.

Giving my personal website a facelift…

Sinfulldreamer.ath.cx is undergoing some massive changes. First of all the overall look of the website has changed. CSS is being used instead of plain HTML. I even added in some php scripts such as a file manager and a guestbook. Still have a few categories to go. The sub-categories are going to be the worst because I have lost all of the content from the old site. It won’t be hard though, just tedious. Hopefully I can get it up and running by the end of the month. Here is a little screenshot of the main page:

Re-thinking my story “The Lost Soul”

The Lost Soul is one of my stories I began writing some time ago. It fell through the cracks because I didn’t have any direction for it. This time around I’m building the characters, plot, story and the world they live in from the ground up. One of my best friends said it had a lot potential for being a great story. The main character is loosely based on myself. Here is the profile I wrote for him:

“Who is Bryan?
Bryan is a 18 year old mischief maker. He is naive and arrogant, thinks only about outsmarting others, pulls a lot of pranks and is widely well known throughout the school. He is naturally curious and has had a hard life due to his mother dying at a early age and his sister and Father having to raise him. He has never met a girl in his whole life let alone anyone who cared. Although he has a lot of friends he has one friend who knows who he truly is.”

See you guys later!

New video up! 2008 – 2010 photo reel

Two cameras and four years in the making - my first photo reel. These are the very best of my photos from 2008 to 2010 Hope you love my photos I'm hoping someday to do this as a profession.

Music used: "If" by: Peter Rudenko of jamendo.com
Get the track here: http://www.jamendo.com/en/album/64680
Music is licensed under the Creative Commons licence.
http://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/3.0/

New video – Dovie-go-round

One day my mom’s ringneck dove somehow got on top of the ceiling fan in one of our rooms. I went to turn on the light and hit the fan switch by accident. The motion didn't seem to scare him so I pulsed the fan's switch on and off to see what he would do. Turns out he seemed to enjoy it.. I assure you this lovable bird was not harmed in the making of this video.